another
I’m only another
On a bleak, poisoned earth
But i guess there’s no feeling
So what am i worth?
Tread down my body
Burn out my heart
I’ll smile, don’t worry
Just tear me apart
It’s not like i feel
Not with my wall
I’m just here to help
Pick you up when you fall
“Goodnight”
As I lay your fine head down to sleep
I bid you farewell and kiss your cheek
May you enter into your world of dreams
Where you meet and greet whomever you please
And as I too do go to bed
I pray that I meet you, inside my head
PARTY
Strange faces
Strange voices
Strange clothes
Bad choices
High class
Working class
Can of beer
Martini Glass
Mixed reception
Wrong appearance
Downward spiral
Dirty conscience
Closing in
I want out
No escape
Need to shout
Reading Hour
In pen and in pencil
Expertly arranged
Colourful monochrome
Drips from the page
Through words and rhythm,
Prose and rhyme,
Climb inside someone’s mind
Or a portal through time
void
Your head feels bust
And your mouth tastes of rust
From blood tasted and spat out last night
And you want to cry
Feel so messed up inside
But everyone says it will all be alright
It’s hard to believe
When you’re on your knees
And the faith and the hope have dried up
But you try to smile
In blatant denial
Of the fact that your heart feels tied up
A faint old tune plays
As you sleep through each day
In a bed made of ash, built for one
The drug is right there
But you feel too scared
Of what they’ll say when they see what you’ve done
The pills should’ve helped
Instead you just felt
Like everything had become so much clearer
Waking each day
To suffer in vain
And ending it knowing the answer
Spontaneous thoughts
Outline in white chalk
The person they thought you could be
Inconsistency bends
Your image of strength
Always brings you back down to your knees
If you could just feel
If your wounds could just heal
Then it might disappear this time ’round
But dreams are all lies
And everyone dies
Nothing matters when you’re underground
momentum amounts to memories
Dirty fingernails and twelve sweaty feet
Torn-up clothes and three cuts that weep
Quietly outspoken, the Man with the Plan
The night crashes down and falls asleep
Someone laughed so hard their make-up ran
I cried when she sighed and held my hand
The beauty of another memory made
She leant in close and said “everybody can”
old
Fags and alcohol
Slouched with her favourite poisons
What a role model
I wish I could help
There is a barrier there
I look away, again
savage romance
The mechanics of desire never considered
That you may be required to be beaten down
And force-fed a farce of spit, spite and blood
Split into halves by a sick diseased clown
You were once a saint, among so many black hearts
Looked so young as you waited in your tainted armour
So she argued with haste as you fell apart
Expectations of love displaced by your partner
After scripts burnt out and an awkward silence
Came a history of bouts in gloves dusted with dry ice
Your anxiety prevailed as the days turned into months
And your honesty soon failed as she lusted for those fights
A child addicted to misery and scars
But seductively painted with a face of fake charm
You shed your true tears for tragic circumstance
And built brand new fears for her own false harm
She was once taught like a child in a cast
People can be fought until they break or bend
Manipulation is the word that brings life to ugly masks
But if cannot be heard and it cannot be read
An invalid arrangement so she’d feel strong
Mood swings and blind rage beat your ego to pulp
You can’t deny you betrayed her ‘cause she’s never wrong
And all of her hurt was always your fault
the all-natural orchestra!
We extend to your person a grand invitation
To get down and boogie, and dance to the rhythm
Of a handcrafted mirror ball mosaic drum
So join in with us or take your well-earned turn
To entice all others and lead by the hand
A mish-mash of merry-men, an exciting new band
Of flip-flops and castles and sparkling glitters
And cherry-topped sundaes and pineapple fritters
Those dashing young men with their stubbly chins
Those pretty young ladies with their charming grins
The oddballs, the all-sorts, the dim and the bright
The ones who love daytime and the ones who love night
And everyone smiley or with rugged hair
Come dance in the streets and let others stare
Wear the robes of a king or a clown
And turn all those frowns right upside down!
the invincible spongeboy!
Departure is the only resolve.
Nonetheless, persist to repair
Make all the effort, undergo and reform
Regardless of what seems just or fair
Counselling or therapy might change your state
She must do nothing, since you are the cause
She can scream and lash out, or spit in your face
You must be calm, silent and absorb
Act on her every impulsive whim
But not to such an extent as you do
Cause that would make you a coward and a wimp
Judge which was anger and which was true
Fury’s a resort which serves well indeed
Although not for you, it’s not your place
You should be worm so she can be queen
You should be grace so she can be hate
Princess Zero
Schoolgirl valentine smiles in
Red leather bondage, studded with spiked metal
Leaps across the empty mountains after midnight
Spreads her arms like a confused mistress
Holding the world on her back,
Buckling shoulders support an ancient
Something she’ll never understand
Ties an old ghost to a withering tree
In a burning forest,
Leaves him to melt to a fierce bubbling
Puddle of foolish hope
And skips the funeral
To attend a dragon’s ball
Hosted by a myth that cries itself to sleep
Arrives on the arm of a cheap lie,
In crystal stilettos sticking to fishnet stockings
And faded dress worn with friction
Faking concern for the charity of the night
Waltzes as the night heads to climax
On an empty spiral floor
That rises erect to the sky
With her on top, writhing and shaking
Leaps from the clouds at dawn as
Breath turns to ice,
Soars past a hundred homeless hearts and
Sprouts huge wings
Rises to the glowing sun, fades out of sight
Then ignites in a blinding flash
That fills the sky and leaves nothing
Feeling whole
Anymore
Diving (2021)
I can’t dive like other people do
They can go down without holding their nose
If I do that, I choke right away
I’ve tried not to hold it in lots of ways, but still
It doesn’t make sense to me
So I built myself a submarine
A protected shell to let me explore
even the deepest parts, still breathing
I don’t know what it’s made of
Wondered for a while, but now
I’m happy not knowing.
Sometimes I don’t remember the pressure it can take
It’s easy to forget how other people dive
Some special people taught themselves
to stop breathing
And that’s quite a feat!
To go that long and still survive
If I did that, I’d worry that
when I came up, I’d still be holding
my breath: In a box, sealed and closed off
If I opened it up would I choke on what’s there –
Would I be left gasping for air, does it leak?
What if there’s a hole? would it overflow inward,
drowning my my soul, or outward, a spill?
I can’t imagine the strength it takes
to build a box like that
and hold it shut
Adventures (2021)
I hold my tongue inside my head
Won’t say what’s on my mind
Because I know if I’m myself
Then people run and hide
They don’t like my winding words
The journeys, twists and turns
So I stay quiet and keep things brief
That way I can’t be hurt
It makes me think, what’s their world like?
Do they say all they see?
Or are there forests in their heads,
And they’re afraid to speak?
But there are people in my life
Who don’t shut down near me
So like a dog let off its leash
My thoughts and words roam free
They let me lead them down my paths
Exploring hand in hand
And they see things I never saw
Among these unknown lands
They tell me that they like my words
And I believe them when they say:
“There’s no-one else who’s quite like you,
I hope you never change”
Haiku 1
A moment of calm.
Tangent. Insight. Awaken.
Butterfly drifts on
Haiku 2
Pearl beneath water
In time, emerges slowly
Exposing itself
Delicate (2025)
On our first night together, what I thought I saw
was questioned the next morning
as you stood in the door
to the bedroom
and told me to come to breakfast, wrapped up in something
soft
Looking cute but commanding
I couldn’t believe how close we could be
How you replaced insecurities left in me by my past
Maybe it’s true that we’re moving too fast
But I’m really hoping that this thing might last
The delicate soul I thought I’d glimpsed
Replaced with a image of strength and sass
Was it just the drink, or are you on the brink
Of showing who’s really behind the badass?
Yet one fatal flaw in this thing we’ve created
The feelings you have are so unexpected
You try to explain but can’t articulate it
All you can do is hold my hand
and tell me you need a plan
As your heart expands, at a rate unprecedented
So let’s just give it a week, and anyway,
just after that you’re on holiday, for 21 days
and we don’t want to miss each other too much,
while you’re away.
So I say: OK.
But let’s make the most of the time we have left
You come over later to sleep in my bed
We try to watch a film but do other things instead
We talk and we cuddle, we kiss and have sex
It’s crazy intense, but I get in my head
So we talk a bit more and you help me reset
Then we fall asleep naked, and I feel content
for someone who can’t hear it
I feel like you took
advantage of me
My nativity,
My care,
and my need
to give love when I see
it’s not there
But now you’re missing
And I miss your kissing
So hungry and vulnerable and wanting
I’d have given you almost everything
But for all I adored you
I couldn’t hand over
my pride any more
I couldn’t be a doormat
to the things you did.
The way you hurt me.
How you took my heart for granted
And cut
and prod
and teased
and burned it
And made me think what was real
Was another thing wrong with me
Each time I’d feel it,
a drop in
the sea
to you
…
To me, heartbreak and confusion
Using me as a pin cushion
Inventing new truths
as you go
And, on occasion, being nice
But just enough to make me think twice
About leaving
you
and the abuse
Minotaur
Minotaur might fall tonight, tall fool
Bull was too cool to hear the call
Beautiful birds all belched in the belfry, bull culled
Flo
Hey lemme up!
I need to touch
Stroke my fluff,
Give my belly a rub
Hey what’s that?
Yap yap yap!
Oh it’s just the telly?
No wait there’s something!
Is it a person, or a demon
or something else scary???
Secure the perimeter!
Scare away the intruder!
What’s that, is someone cooking?
Run to the kitchen:
Watch and wag.
Watch and wag.
Til my eyes are sleepy from staring
I might have a nap
Gonna get cosy
Hey don’t move
I only just got comfy!
Ok fine but now I need a wee
What d’you mean it’s raining?
I can’t get my paws wet!
I can’t believe this needs explaining,
Don’t you know yet?
I’m Princess Flo
I like fuss and attention
Look at my cute bow!
I’m just a girl dog
I can’t handle this
Saying that tho,
I do need to piss
Imp
I am the imp,
with a grin and a wink
I’ll confuse you first thing in the morning
I’ll make you think
to put your toast in the fridge
Bamboozle you while you’re still yawning
The best place for juice?
Pour that down the sink!
I’ll admit it, I find it amusing
Add salt to your coffee!
You thought doing this daily
would help when your brain is all foggy?
No, I am the imp who will ruin your day
Til you say: “What the fuck am I doing?”
And just for good measure
You’ll trip over a slipper
That you’d swear wasn’t there just last evening
So when you are late
On that important day
When everything was meant to be ready
Just know it was me!
The imp you can’t see
Causing chaos cause I think it’s funny
Sol
I open my curtains
and I’m suddenly certain
That this is a very good day
The sun’s shining brightly
And I think I just might be
On time for my afternoon date
The girl she seems lovely
Optimistic and bubbly
And I’m certain we’ll be at least friends
Cause I’m in no rush
To find my true love
What happens will be, in the end
But there’s still hope in me
That this one just might be
What I’ve been looking for all of this time
But being open and honest
I don’t know if I know just
Who it is that I want to be mine
And I’m still not sure
If I can be all
Of myself with someone I love
I want to feel free
To simply be me
But vulnerability is quite tricky stuff
I might feel I’m in freefall
Letting down all of my walls
And exposing my heart so plainly
So I need someone I’m safe with
Who won’t take advantage
Of the side that’s so soft and cuddly
And who challenges me too
And reads my texts from the loo
Cause let’s be honest that’s never not funny
And who carries my burdens
And is a shoulder to cry on
When I’m not feeling terribly manly
And who’s quirky as hell
And looks like a bombshell
When I see them first thing in the morning
And who takes time and invests
As I yap about my interests
And pretends that they don’t find it boring
I guess that’s not too much
Just someone who likes touch
And can accept all my love and my gushing
But my one big limitation
Is that we both must agree on:
Tiramisu is the actual best pudding
Tinder Poem
Hey how you doing
Thought I’d write you this rhyme
I’d love some attention
If you have the time 😁
Cause if I’m being honest
I think that you’re hot
Like, not just your pics
Though I like them a lot 🥵
But your vibe is cute too
And I’d love to know more
About what you’re into
And where you wanna explore 🤔
And the places you’ve been
And the things that they taught you
And what else you discovered
And the people you talked to ✨
I wanna ask if you’d like
To go on a date
Or a video call
If you feel it’s safe 🤗
And if you wanna go deeper
There’s more to be said
Cause I’m not just a guy
Trying to get you in bed 😇
But I do like to yap
I guess that that’s true
So I’m kinda hoping
Maybe you do that too 😛
I already feel happy
When I see a message from you
Maybe that’s weird
And I’m a big silly goose 🪿
But I wanna know more
Else this is just filler
Hey it’s still pretty funny
That your pic looks like a serial killer 😂
And I am super fussy
I’d give most people a pass
But your bio was something
Other girls can’t surpass 🤘
And if you need convincing
Well I know what I got
I’m smart and I’m funny
And I have a big
co…llection of video games! (if you’d like to play co-op) 😁
Anyway, that’s me done
I hope that you like this poem
Hit me up if you want
To where this could be going 😋