Practising not doing anything has paid off. Letting go when talking to people and not self monitoring means autonomous interaction with almost everyone is now possible. Daily interaction anxiety has also been substantially reduced on campus by talking to people I recognise, instead of bowing my head because I feel nervous or whatever, since I know I’m gonna see them again, and the more you see someone you know but don’t talk to them, the harder it is in the long run, and the more awkward it is to be in their vicinity.
We just had a demi-arguement. I said “you completely cut me off to say comething totally irrelevant after asking me a question, what the hell?” You said, “well you’ve been doing that for the past two days”.
We talked about this. If we don’t talk about the little things that build up, we end up doing this argument thing, every freakin’ time. “I don’t like that you just did this” / “Well you did it yesterday and it pissed me off”. That’s completely destructive. I wish you’d stop resenting me for things I’m honestly completely unaware of.
Also, for the record, when I say after a bad mock-interview “I feel like i need to cry”, “I feel like a part of me just died”, and “I feel like my heart’s been cut up, burnt and pissed on”, the correct responses are not “you don’t feel like that” and “i still don’t get why you feel like that”.